Bless this Mess

September 1st, 2004

So this weekend, I’m heading up north—to Albany—to visit my buddy Dave. Dave and I were friends throughout college: classmates, drinking buddies, and—for three weeks in Greece and the whole of my senior year—roommates.

A few weeks after that, I’ll be paid a visit here in the city by another roommate o’ mine during college, John. John was actually the first from our little coven of friends to move east after graduation; by the time I arrived in New York a few months later, John was already living and working about an hour away in Connecticut. He would visit me about once per month, and we would usually end up acting like jackasses or morons, and—on particularly good nights—both. John’s back in the Midwest now, and I haven’t seen him in nearly two years.

To be sure, I have other very good friends from college: Brent and Clint and Blair and maybe some others, but I’ll have to admit that these two upcoming weekends have made me a little bit wistful. I was trying to explain that to someone the other day, but they grew up in New York and have always had a lot of friends around. They couldn’t understand how hard it can be to stuff as much as you can into a duffel bag and move halfway across the country into a city with 8 million strangers. Make no mistake, I don’t have very many regrets in my life, least of all about coming out here. I have a job I (mostly) really enjoy and I’ve met someone who turned out to show me more patience and love than I ever deserved to have. But still, I want to be able to tell a story to someone about something retarded we did one boring afternoon and have them realize how Goddamn funny it is, even if they have no idea what the hell “Shovel Face” means.

So that’s what I’m gonna do here.

Not every story, of course, because there are far too many. But two. They may not be the best stories out there, but they’re the ones I’m thinking of right now.

Spring 1999. Brent, Clint, John and I are living in the Dirty Buck, the name affectionally given to Buxton Hall, our residence of one semester. In a way, Buxton was better than where we were previously living because it had its own bathroom, but on the other hand it fell upon our wholly incompetent shoulders to keep said bathroom clean, which we proudly did not. The toilet was an unmitigated terror; the shower was inexplicably worse. (After all, aren’t showers inherently clean? They’re filled with hot water and soap, how could they not be? Anyway.) About halfway through the semester, we started to notice a very strong, very unpleasant odor coming from the drain. What began at first as a sort-of-funny lark (“Hey, dude, what the fuck is that? Pass the Kahlua.”) quickly evolved into something much worse, as the shower was right next to the little roomlet where we all slept. We started pouring stuff down the drain—first shower cleaner spray, then bleach, then industrial-strength drain cleaner—nothing ever worked. Whatever caused the smell was completely immune to all previously-known forms of chemical attack. Even Brent and Dave, both ordained clergy in the Universal Life Church, were unable to rid our shower of the smell through intense prayer. We never did get rid of that smell. I’ll bet it still smells today. Sometimes, when the wind is right, I walk outside and think—just for a moment—that I can still smell whatever it is. And it haunts me.

One more. Of course, there’s the story about the band of obese guys that dropped by our room one night to kick Clint’s ass but couldn’t get close enough to him because of his giant foam cowboy hat. But you all know that story already. Then there’s the story Dave likes to tell about the time in Greece when I threw his toothbrush in the garbage can, but if I don’t remember it it didn’t really happen. So I’ll tell a little story about the final week of my senior year.

Dave, Brent, the Fat Bastard, and I were all living in Detroit Rock City, a laughably small “apartment” just across the street from campus. Some time earlier in the semester, out of frustration or sheer lack of inertia, I had hurled a book across the room. Not surprisingly, it knocked a gaping hole in the wall. [Pause for snicker at my use of the term "gaping hole." Continue.] We may have covered the hole with a poster, we may have just let it stay, my memory becomes fuzzy at this point. (And, I believe, I may be getting two “hole in the wall” stories mixed up.) Fast forward to final week of the semester. Brent is gone, spending a semester in London. Fat Bastard is gone, off trying to molecularly fuse himself to his girlfriend. Dave is out, probably not going to class. I stand in the middle of the apartment, trying to figure out what to do with the hole in the wall. The hole I created. I’m nothing if not a) resourceful or b) an idiot, so I stuffed the hole with newspaper and the cardboard from a case of beer until it was approximately flush with the wall, and then paved the whole Goddamn thing over with plaster donated by the art department supply closet. A can of paint found in the basement matched close enough, and by the end of the night we had us a brand new wall. I’m sure the apartment has been re-painted since then, but I’d venture to guess that my newspaper-and-beer-case patch job is still there, probably keeping the whole damn place from crashing to the ground.

More than four years removed from that night, standing in my apartment with nothing but a stack of newspapers, an empty case of beer, and a dream, a lot has changed: some of my friends got married, the rest of us have jobs and house payments and all the other shit that comes along with getting old and selling out. I may not e-mail or call my friends as much as I used to, but I don’t think they hold that against me. I definitely don’t get to see them as much as I would like, but when I do, we always have a good time. Even as our lives continue to grow further and further apart, I look forward to visiting Dave and his wife this weekend, or having John and his wife over in October, or hanging out with Clint around Thanksgiving, or maybe seeing Brent once every six years, knowing that—like the smell in our shower at the Dirty Buck or the slipshod patch job in Detroit Rock City—they’ll always be there.

-sam.

If you follow golf …

April 8th, 2004

If you follow golf, and I don’t necessarily do so, it could be an interesting weekend at the Masters.

I don’t profess to be a fan of golf, save for watching any winner celebrate when they triumph on the Sunday of a major, but I stumbled on an article written by a former colleague of mine at The Star, and I was reminded of a column I wrote in 2002, focusing on a new side of Tiger, exhibited after a loss in the British Open.

Anyhow, I’ve reprinted it here, it’s also available at my former mouthpiece. But it follows, and, who knows, I may actually have hit on something valid.

Tiger shows off new stripes

A long-running sportswriter maxim is that, “win or lose, a dynasty is a big story.”

The theory is that a dominant team or individual can triumph on a sport’s grandest stage or be upset. Either way, it’s story material.

If this is true, then the last year of sports has certainly been a banner one. As it stands right now around the pro and college sports landscape, rich, powerful, machine-like organizations are everywhere.

The Yankees’ run in baseball, the Lakers’ three-peat, the Red Wings’ ongoing spending spree, Miami football, Venus and Serena Williams, and, of course, the inimitable Tiger Woods.

Columnists, sportswriters, the general populace took it as a foregone conclusion that Tiger would win, that no one — not actual champion Ernie Els, perennial runner-up Phil Mickelson, top Europeans Sergio Garcia and Nick Price — no one had a chance at all.

Sure, some forecasters predicted that the short layout of Muirfield might give Woods problems, but they were in the minority. This shows that just as some onlookers revel in the dominance of sporting figures, some continually hope for the underdog, usually disappointed, but ultimately happy once in a while, if the mighty happen to fall.

The mighty did fall in October 2001, when Luis Gonzalez singled off Mariano Rivera, giving the Diamondbacks a World Series win. They fell in January, when the New England Patriots improbably captured a Super Bowl. They fell in March, when the Indiana Hoosiers caught Duke on a cold-shooting night. Similarly, Woods entered the British Open this week amid much fanfare about his eventual triumph.

And the mighty Tiger fell here.

Woods is certainly the best player in golf today, maybe as good as Nicklaus, maybe not. His steely demeanor and Michael Jordan-like competitive nature are as much an asset for him as they are a reason for his detractors to root against him.

Tiger suffers from a lack of charisma that many fans aren’t used to among great athletes. His personality just can’t compare with the well-liked aura of Nicklaus. He appears wooden, (pardon the pun), while Nicklaus appears affable. Tiger can sound arrogant, where Jack sounded casual. Appearances, image — they’re everything. The same phenomena is apparent in basketball.

Try as Kobe Bryant might, he’s not going to erase Michael Jordan’s memory. Not with records, not with rings. He can’t. He is almost reviled in many places, booed at the All-Star Game even in his hometown.

Where Bryant sounds cocky, Jordan sounded confident. Where Bryant appears arrogant, Jordan was competitive. Kobe just isn’t at Jordan’s level. Not yet, maybe not ever. Bryant can’t even approach possible-felon Allen Iverson on the popularity scale.

Tiger and Jack. Kobe and Michael. It’s tough to play against the past.

So, even though Woods’ defeat ends his assault on a calendar-year Grand Slam and is certainly disappointing to him, maybe it will be the best thing for him.

His 81 on July 20, coming as it did in bad weather, actually evinced some human qualities from Tiger.

There he was, hacking away in a bunker, throwing his clubs, tossing his hat, looking utterly frustrated.

Then, in his press conference, he surely had to feel more heat than any other golfer would in the same situation.

But he was laughing, even sounding relieved. He looked like any weekend, municipal golfer, scoffing at a bad round, hoping just for the next time.

Is it possible, that Tiger appeared human, for the first time?

We saw a smile afterwards, we saw anger on the course. We saw reality.

Tiger is a golfer, an excellent golfer. But he had a bad day. Everyone has a bad day. Everyone can be beaten, by the weather, head-to-head, in extreme pressure, everyone.

And Tiger proved this on July 20. Ultimately, he now may reach a larger iconic status than even if he would have won the Grand Slam. Plus, he’s 26; it’s not like a Grand Slam is totally out of reach anyway.

But for now, the talk, the hype can end.

Now Tiger can just play his game, better than everyone else, beatable occasionally, winning scattered tournaments here and there. He can strive for Nicklaus’ records, end up perhaps the winningest golfer of all time, or at least subject of ongoing barstool debates on his and Nicklaus’ relative greatness.

But the British Open has possibly given him a likable, accessible status, something the Golden Bear had from the beginning, something Tiger couldn’t have erased or even equaled with 100 major championships.

Now, he may just have it.

And it may prove to be more valuable to him than the Claret Jug after all.

Hope springs eternal

February 19th, 2004

Ah, spring. The time when everything comes into bloom, bringing one color to mind. Green.

Money. The beast that rules baseball. Evidenced in all its sadistic glory by the New York Baseball YankeeNetDevils’ acquisition of one Alex F. Rodriguez. At once the biggest baseball story of 2004. At once the biggest sports story of 2004. At once separating the entire world into Love the Yankees camp or Hate the Yankees camp.

“It’s good for baseball,” silly scribes proclaimed. “Who doesn’t want a Goliath? It’s the best drama when they are slain!”

Seriously. Baseball thinks it’s playing to the fans’ interest when writers are coronating the Yanks and Cubs in February. It’s sickening. It’s preposterous. There’s 250 games to play!

But once again, baseball’s marketing folk are forgetting that they are continually left in the dust by the glitzy, parity-ruled NFL. Sure, the Yankees are a tremendously well-run franchise, save for some hasty in-season decisions. Sure, they play by the rules. But for crying out loud, great theater or not, the system — the rules — are seriously flawed.

But it’s okay, we’re said to accept. Because A-Rod is such a team player, that he’s changing positions. And playing next to his best friend. And this is best for Texas and New York. And baseball! What a capitalist, Republican country, reflected best, right here, right now!

Well, this is all baloney. A-Rod’s a fraud. This mass media blitz is a fraud. The Rangers are a fraud, and, at the end, I suspect we may learn that the 2004 New York Baseball All-Star YankeeNetDevils are frauds, too. (Note: I realize that the Yankees may or may not have divested themselves of the two Jersey franchises they are said to own. But it’s column license to make them seem more corporate and evil.)

A-Rod now conveniently wants a ring. Well, don’t we all. Where was this notion when A-Rod was leaving Seattle for the contract-on-steroids that owner Tom Hicks issued him? Seattle is a perennial almost-contender, but in theory, wouldn’t the 116-win 2001 team have shot over the top if A-Rod hadn’t bolted?

In theory, I guess. Because it was about the money then, wasn’t it, Rod? And your vanity. Which is why the Mets didn’t sign you. They didn’t want to purchase a second, private plane, which you could have well afforded. Nope, you went to Texas, for a mountain of money, confident the franchise could rebuild around you. They tried to do it quick, with a couple of bad signings. But now, now that they want to rebuild with youth around you, well, you’re impatient. Very classy.

The capitalist Yankee fans will argue that if he’s not happy, he has a right to leave. Okay. But don’t think for a minute that his integrity isn’t compromised in the process. He’s a prima donna. Sure, he’s good. Yeah, he plays hard. But his lack of patience and resistance to persist on as a centerpiece — well, that’s it. Ask yourself this — Is a title that Gary Payton may win this year the same as one he may have won with the Sonics? No? How about Dan Marino, the Viking? Clyde Drexler, the Rocket? Is a ring necessary? Is it really? If it compromises your integrity? (Ray Bourque, I look squarely at you. You too, Hasek.)

I’m not an intense loyalist myself, but if you sign a deal with a company for ten years, and it is garbage at the beginning, then you better expect that it may take the full ten years to improve. At least have some foresight. Because to bolt or to whine looks completely and utterly cheap Does it reaffirm your Hall of Fame credentials to join the machine?

And the Rangers. You don’t escape blame here, either. When you grossly outbid yourself because you’ve been schnookered by an agent, you can’t simply expect that the money paid in yields returns. That’s not a formula for winning.

The aforementioned Mariners won 116 games after A-Rod left. In another theory, maybe he was why.

Captain Rod just tipped the scales even worse, vying for title of The Apprentice 2, under NYC’s other tyrant, King George. Does Hicks honestly think Soriano and a player to be named was the best he could do? Or is he holding out hope that the Yankees will kindly bestow on him a gift later in the season? What in the world is his logic here?

Years ago, Tribune Co. held out on a possible deal for Sammy Sosa, wanting five Yankees — including Soriano – in return. A-Rod doesn’t command at least that? And now Soriano’s 28? He could have gone from a future star to a possible also-ran in minutes. And the Rangers claim they knew this? Is a chimp running this franchise? Or is Buck Showalter still working for New York?

To top that, while George and Joe and Derek were all over TV trumpeting the new deal, Hicks spouted off on ESPN that the Rangers would not only be utterly bad this year, with no chance to win, but maybe the year after that, and that Hicks completely, totally, tail-between-his-legs admitted defeat. How are those season-ticket sales going?

And now, finally, where the buck stops — the Yankees. You, New York. You’re it. The writers all talk about buckling under pressure and the media blitz, and golly gee, these stories are great for baseball! (Till the NFL’s parity swallows the sport up again in September. Again.)

But is this really going to work? The Yanks finally returned to dominance when you let your core grow up in the organization. Jeter. Posada. Bernie. Rivera. Pettitte. When the little names became big. Martinez. O’Neill. Now it’s a muscle flex here in the offseason and a muscle flex there, and it hasn’t won them anything. Guess what? Everyone now knows you can score 2,000,000 runs during the season. Hitters may win you the AL East in a normal year, but has the emasculated Jason Giambi given you a lift where Tino and Nick Johnson haven’t?

Do you expect the same from A-Rod? He replaces Soriano, who, with proper hitting instruction, probably created a similar number of runs to what A-Rod may produce. Now he’s gone. Gary Sheff? Wait for the playoff disappearing act and, of course, rampant steroid accusations. Your storebought pitching? Everyone knows you’ll need to shop again in June. Andy Pettitte for Vazquez/K-Brown? Ouch. Read these lips, Pettitte was THE BEST PITCHER IN YANKEE HISTORY. NOW PLAYING IN HOUSTON.

Still, you’re flexed. Locked and loaded. But it’s not as monumental as we all are led to believe. (And if big-name acquisitions are the key, then how ’bout Anaheim’s offseason?)

Nope. A-Rod can’t pitch But the Yankees still flex. And they hope you’re all intimidated. A castrated superstar joins the ride. But nothing has changed.

Except in L.A., where the brains behind Oakland’s stat-obsessed regular-season run has landed as the Dodgers’ GM. Paul DePodesta couldn’t often get the A’s over the hump, because with a mediocre budget, you could never go out and get a “clutch” player, because supposedly, they didn’t exist.

Guess what. L.A. has a budget — much larger than the Athletics. And in 2006, the bankrupt, farm-depleted Yankees are going to look awfully funny next to the young, world champion Dodgers.

But of course, that’s only two years down the road. A-Rod can certainly start politicking now for a piggyback on L.A.’s future ride.

COMING SOON

February 17th, 2004

Another baseball column on the best and worst in baseball during the last week, which may include commentary on the A-Rod trade, as well as the Dodgers’ more monumental acquisition the same day.

That’s right, I’m back in the fold. I’m not a sellout. I still have a mouth.

Plus, I’ve come up with a great nickname for our favorite whiny baseball player. Captain Rod!. Get it? Yep, it’s funny.

comedy gold… err red… err blue

February 16th, 2004

Over the weekend, while I was doing some miscellaneous stuff on my computer, I stumbled upon a little website known as Red Vs. Blue. It’s a little comedy series that was made using multiplayer Halo. Before you tune me out thinking that this is just another stupid website that only gamers will laugh at, read a bit further. While the movies do include some gaming concepts (Capture the Flag, a brief exploration on why two sides are fighting each other over a square valley in the middle of nowhere) it’s generally just humorous dialog and guys belittling other guys.

The film work is done by using one player’s first person view as the camera and having the other players “act out” scenes, voices are then dubbing in to complete the package. Did I mention that one of the guys worked for a show on the WB?

I highly recommend watching the trailer then the first five episodes and then watching the PSA once you have a bit of an understanding of the characters.

I’ve already ordered the season one DVD. But you can also download all the episodes off of various places on the web.

If this isn’t your sort of thing then I don’t want to be your friend anymore. Why are you still reading this? Seriously!

two movies

December 27th, 2003

In the vast amount of free time I’ve had lately, I’ve been seeing a movie or two per day. I’ve seen the first two Lord of the Ringsones, as well as Elephant, all of which were pretty good. Two movies, however, really stood out to me. That’s not a good thing.

Blow – When you put Johnn Depp in a movie about coke smuggling and mix in a fair amount of Penelope Cruz, how can you miss? Apparently it’s fairly easy. I can’t believe anyone that doesn’t have the surname Spielberg could fuck up this gimme of a good plot. It’s sad. Say what you will against names as truncated descriptions, this movie tells in favor of the theory.

Cold Mountain – This movie is the biggest pile of steaming shit I’ve seen in days, at least. Granted the story was some kind of sappy combination of Dances With Wolves, Steel Magnolias, and McCabe and Mrs. Miller. (Oh, and have I mentioned McCabe and Mrs. Miller yet? Great film. One of my new favorites.) But even beyond the horrible story, there was an abundance of horrible acting from the likes of Philip Seymour Hoffman, Natalie Portman, and Jack White. Yeah, Mr. Rock Out With Your Cock Out, Best Album of 2003 Jack Fucking Striped White. He’s a shitty actor, though he does play a mean mandolin. Still, why? And sure Renee Zellweger is hot and seems to be the most aptly cast person in the film (oh yeah, Nicole Kidman really worked), but it was still awful.

shaven bush

December 16th, 2003

George H. W. Bush is the president of the United States and is also the leader of our nation’s armed forces. What you may not know however is that he’s one of Satan’s lesser imps. That’s right, he’s one of Satan’s lesser imps. This may come as a shock to those of you that believe him to be a devout christian. Well, you’ve seen Carnivale haven’t you? His father George Sr. was the head of the CIA and still helps run the world through his ties to the shadow government and Yale’s secret organization Skull and Bones. He did however have a fairly humorous guest spot on the simpsons.

Just ignore this if you were looking for content. Oh, and by the way. You sir have the boorish manners of a Yaley.

Where in the world is JJH?

December 11th, 2003

As dozens of you readers have undoubtedly noticed, one of the Den’s semifrequent contributors has gone missing. What’s up with that? Where is he? Does anyone know? Does anyone care? Will he return?

Is he here? Or here? How about here?

This begins the newest concept to DSV.com, a reader contest to describe where it is exactly that JJH, a.k.a. jHa, is. Post your scenarios directly to this comment, and the winner gets a 12-pack or something. Beer to be chosen by moi.

You read it here first

December 9th, 2003

The next major terrorist attack against the United States is not going to take place on US soil. Nope, it’s going to be done Munich style during the Athens’ summer games next year. ESPN is already reporting that the USATF has ordered that athletes not wear team apparel or anything with the flag or red white and blue on it when not competing.

With all the reports about how horrible the preparation is going I’m worried that even though I’m sure security is a priority something is going to be overlooked. Look at the Atlanta games, even though they were on US soil someone was able to get a bomb into the village and detonate it. While this incident was rather minor, compared to Munich, it illustrates just how simple it is to infiltrate such a chaotic event such as the Olympics.

I don’t think I’m being alarmist when I say that almost any mass gathering of US citizens, or even citizens of nations that somewhat support the US government, should make security their number one concern. Remember a dirty bomb can easily be hidden in an innocent, and tasty, looking vending machine.

While I hope I’m wrong, you’ve got to admit that Athens makes a much better target than an event such as the World Series or Super Bowl because the terrorists will have the entire world watching. That’s an awfully large pulpit to preach from.

various reviews

December 3rd, 2003

Damn, it’s been a long time since i’ve posted here. And since I don’t have anything sinny or vicey to put down, I thought a few movie reviews would earn me a reprieve from the guilt I feel about not putting shit up. With the free time I don’t really have and the desire not to be at home, I’ve divided time between bars, movies, and bars. So here goes:

Horns and Halos – A documentary about the publishing of the GW biography Fortunate Son after it got pulled by a major publisher and picked up by an independent publisher. The book is the one that first alleged that our glorious president abused the Peruvian Marching Powder in his younger days, as well as some other revelations. It’s a fairly short film, but has a lot of information packed in. It’s also one of those documentaries that not only covers the issue at hand, but leaves things fairly open at the end. Not to give too much away, but there is some question about the journalistic integrity (an oxymoron?) of the book’s author that naturally affects one’s impression of the book. This isn’t a film that will be played many places, I’d imagine, but if you have a chance and are interested in the subject, it’s worth a couple bucks to see.

Elf – Yeah, I went and saw it. It’s not bad, though the ending is just another sappy xmas piece of crap. I expected far more out of Will Ferrell, especially in a film directed by Jon Favreau that had appearances by Amy Sedaris, Matt Walsh, Bob Newhart, and Ed Asner. Some good comedy, but nothing spectacular. Better than Intolerable Cruelty, though.

Dirty Pretty Things – Another one brought to me by The Ross, the student theater here. It’s an interesting story about an African immigrant living in London and working several jobs to support himself. Of course, there’s a terrible secret he uncovers. If it were made in the US, this wouldn’t have been that good. But thankfully it’s a Brit film, so some cliches were avoided. Still, worth seeing.

Pirates of the Caribbean – Don’t even want to write anything about this, really. Johnny Depp is cool and Geoffrey Rush was good. But it only cost me $2, so that’s a plus. I could write about seeing Seabiscuit the next night, too, but that would just be cruel. Can’t see any movies with El Duderino anymore.